Output is one- live.

 My name is Elena, am 62 y.old, with me happened a  terrible attack is stroke, doctors have   not understood   reason and not wanted ,  and in 5 months next attack is stroke, condition is there not take, and here is not live ,   life between sky and earth. Doctor shares this is depression.

Am not interested to live, from a youn lady as beautiful, energy am has turned in thin, exhausted grandma, from a high quality specialist is in trampled shadow. On this short date   I  stayed nobody and nothing. Hurt are strong, as of often lie and bad understood happening  , am used strong sedative. Am addicted of sedative, hubby tired for doctors visited, searched remedy. My mind  are just suicide to do. Am tried done this, but probably not an all vital  tests endured.God  need,that  Im till end to endure this way. 

Am sure ,That i need sorting out in my problems reasons.

Remember a moment for happy, and this mood. Remember,who strong offended you, and keep to often you. Try to forgive his, enter a church , put candle for healthy enemies. If sleep is bad, try to think just a good, in our life are having just good moments.

Stop fear for night and day begin, not fear for dead, she is always entering us, and not asking.

And am playing in crosswords, memory good for strengthening, I  understood  ,that I need to wait for my grandchildren, and live my private life, which are  needing  for everyone,  since spring till autumn am preparing and drying herbs, roots, flowers local. Later often visiting of forest park, talking with trees, peoples, flowers, i saw all beauty for life, colours. Thus I met with her taste, smell, if legs hurt, am walking slowly just two hours and more. We are living in 2 rooms,as walk through , we are 5, hard to live of small places and by moneys. But  need to find happy moments too. Joy is our life, which god given to us. Sometimes you will  me  with peoples, which are harder, than in you. Depression are bad minds, digging in itself, bad life  , but this is life, which you are self built. Not changed, feared, thus a life, what you created. Enjoy for sun, warm, open window .Care for garden, grow flowers, herbs, open in itself hide talents, am opened my talent, creating pictures of shells, flowers. This is calms,and helps to remove from teasing. Am visiting my friend, we are talking , listening each other, drinking tea, or calling to each other. And in worry, heart aches, hypertension cooking troichatka of herbs infusions, as mixing valeriana drops, leonurus, crataegus, and use for night on drops. Am reading good books are Sytin  s affirmations, and for damage stomach and liver helping are 7 herbs , this is our family recipe. Such a cured our father, brother, sister, and my friends.

Chamomile, yarrow, cudweed, hypericum, mint, calendula one part, chelidonius 1/2 part, all to mix, and one tbl.sp. add in glass for the hot water, infuse, filter, use on acuting process on one tbl.sp. infusion before a meal, for ten days. Rest after ten days, after keep cure, thus use one tbl.sp. mass for 0.5 l. of the hot water and drink one year with rest.

And try to overcome a fatigue, she visits you of unloved business, work, peoples. Remembered about when am cried , thus am cry again, with tears I  received understand,  that all bad is a long time in last. An output is one is to live and find joy in every day, a happy day gives a ticket for a most happiness day. 

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